Some of the things we all wish to attain in life may never actually be reached or realized. With some divine intervention or possibly by our own dharma doing, we find ourselves where we are, how we are and usually in profound shock. How did I get this far? Where did i get the strength? What will happen next? Only some of the question that you may never get an answer to. And that's perfectly normal. Remember not only what was said but also what wasn't said. Learn and grow however you can.